nmsnerd:

One of my followers just killed themselves and I’m really sad about it. I didn’t really know them. A concerning post just came up on my dash last night and I tried to message them but they posted a suicide note this morning, so I think they are gone.  

So, in light of this, I want you all to know that first of all, people will care and people will miss you if you die. Killing yourself is never the answer. Never. There is no such thing as a worthless human, I don’t care what you think about yourself, YOU MATTER. YOU ARE IMPORTANT. Why? Because you are a human being. Because you can think and feel and breathe. That’s why. Anytime you feel like you are worthless, like you don’t matter, like no one will ever miss you if you are gone, that is just your brain lying to you. It is not true. And don’t read this and think that I am somehow talking to everyone except for you, or that somehow these words don’t apply to you, because I assure you, they do. YOU matter. I don’t care who you are, you matter.

You would be surprised how much people care when other people die That’s the thing about humans, is we have this weird capacity to care so much about eachother. I don’t know how often this happens in other peoples schools, but it’s happened a number of times in my life, where someone in my school dies. It’s devistating, everyone in the school is upset about it. Students, teachers…especially teachers who had the student in their class and most of all, poeple who were friends with the kid…even siblings of friends of the kid who died I have seen be deeply effected by a kid's suicide. So don’t think no one will care, or that somehow your death is different than when anyone else dies because somehow you are not as important as them. It’s not true. You are as important and as worthwhile as any other human on this planet, and PEOPLE CARE WHEN PEOPLE DIE!!! Especially your family.

 More importantly than how it will effect other people if you kill yourself, is the fact that YOU don’t deserve it. You don’t deserve to be so upset, you don’t deserve to die, you deserve better. You deserve to be happy, you deserve to lead a life that is worth living. As long as you are alive, there is a chance things will get better. But if you kill yourself, you are removing any chances of that ever happening. SO DON’T

Get help if you can. Talk to someone, reach out, tell them how you feel. I know that sounds scary and you are worried people will judge you, but whatever they judge you for, it’s not nearly as bad as what you might do to yourself. There is nothing wrong with getting help. It isn’t selfish. It isn’t burdening others. It isn’t weak. Sometimes, people need help, and that is okay.

And if you want to come talk to me, please PLEASE don’t hesitate. http://nmsnerd.tumblr.com/ 

Another online recourse www.7cupsoftea.com where you can do online stress exercises and you can connect with a listener. I have used it before for anxiety and it calmed me down a bit.

Too long, didn’t read: Don’t kill yourself. You are important, you matter, because all humans matter. There is no such thing as a worthless person. People will be upset if you kill yourself, people will miss you. People care when people die. Get help if you can, because you don’t deserve to feel this way. Talk to someone in your life. Message me at http://nmsnerd.tumblr.com/. Go to www.7cupsoftea.com to connect to a listener. Things can get better, even if you don’t think they will, but if you kill yourself, nothing will ever get better.